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Sacred Reflection

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I Will Not Disappear
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I Will Not Disappear

I was raised to believe emotions were weakness,

that women were made to orbit men—

that I was the moon, and he, the sun.

I watched my mother dim for my father,

and thought this was devotion.

I made myself small.

Selfless.

Silent.

Believing this pleased God.

The more invisible I became,

the more pure I believed I was.

And in that quiet erasure,

I taught the ones I loved:

I don’t matter.

My dreams, my needs, my tenderness—

all set aside so they could shine.

But one day, I said no more.

Let the whole illusion burn.

What rose from the ashes?

A woman reclaiming her name.

A voice once trembling, now thunder.

A body once bent, now standing.

I will not disappear again.

I will not apologize for taking up space.

I will not trade sovereignty for acceptance.

I am not here to be defined by any man’s desire.

I am here to be holy, whole, and wildly free.

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Reflections

  • What beliefs did you inherit about the role of women in relationships or families?  Where do you still feel those imprints in your life today?

  • Where have you made yourself smaller to be accepted, loved, or praised? How has that shaped your sense of worth?

  • In what ways have you silenced your emotions or needs? How can you begin to reclaim and honor them now?

  • If you were to rewrite the story of womanhood, what would you want the next generation to know?

Journaling

You'll need a candle, a mirror, a small object to symbolize your voice and a pen/paper.

Light your flame; gaze at the candle as you say aloud:  "I call my voice home. I call my light home.  I will not vanish."  Look into the mirror, into your own eyes and speak the first few lines of the poem aloud.  Let your body feel the truth vibrate.

Write a Release on the paper, finish with this sentence: "I used to shrink by..."   Then write: "but now I choose..."  Burn the Old Story as you say: "I let go of the old performance.  I make space for my real self."

Anoint Your Heart and Throat: Touch your object to your body and whisper: "This is my voice.  This is my place.   I belong here.

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